bad to worse

the day went bad to worse if you can see my face now it didnt hit me till after I got back that BOOM things went wrong... There was something about me that I wasn 100% open??? I am so confused but I am still confused but I am more upset then anything. I cried when I got home. I cried.. I litterly cried.. I did.. and I still am upset.... Cheer me up that would be great. If not I will be okay. I hope so

OK so a day that started out so good went so bad

ok so a day tha started out so good went out to be a bad day. I dont know why I am going to say that the day was horrible but I went out with a friend and that didint go so well and well I am very upset over the fact it didnt go so well . I was hoping it did. but no it didnt. I am very upset over it. THOUGH I got a good lunch out of it at the carriage house in Emmittsburg, MD. IT was a good lunch and the desert was delightfuly good. I had a great time and I had a great time but the fact that it didnt go so well was pretty bad. IT was okay. I had a bad time. ok i am not good okay i will be ok i guess :P

start of a brand new day

it is the start of a brand new day people. happy april fools to you too... yeah enjoy it while it lasts hahahaha. jk jk jk. dont get pranked too much if oyu know what I mean. be careful. I am in towntown gettysburg for the day and omg.. im looking to my left in the library to see a big huge person who shoudnt be wearing what they are wearing. it is too small for there frame.. that is so discusting really discusting. i cant even bear to look but yet I am i cant even bear to look over but yet I am omg her bra is showing through her top iasdjas;dasd its too tight for her and shes morbidly obease X 2 ok thats discusting onto lighter topics.. should I include you a photo.. naaah .. il be nice

I am going to go to the library which I am at right now to look for some movies for this weekend and then for this weekend as well I will go by the blockbuster kiosk and get something worthy of watching, idk yet but I have a wonderful saturday planned out si Im going to make it special. well off to check facebook and play some facebook games before I go off and look at the movies downstairs. tata

OH OH OH ALMOST FORGOT

I forgot to mention that I have a new best best best best bestie from mass. SHE IS KDAJLS GREAT the one thing stickam is good for minus the occasional males jacking off... rolles eyes.. I mean yeah I look but I know better they are strait people STRAIT hahahahaha... anyways she the best I love you mate!!! you rock my world besti!!!

life so far

ok my life so far is a bit dreary. as I mentioned in the post before this one. I will continue with it. The last person I dated was a female and im not afraid to say it. she lived in South Carolina and was still living with her ex husband and had 4 abortions. no kidding. was getting a divorce but the problem with all this is that I was going through te akward stage of my life again where I was trying to figure out if I was gay or bisexual and I didnt know what to think anymore so i said fck it and I just said I cant do this she was litterly rtearing me apart and eating me l alive and it was not good for my moral so i said fck it and blocked her number and turned off my cellphone for a week so she would leave me alone. and she did. this all happened right before I was entered into hospitalization at york hospital. it was great though. I got the help that I needed and I took the smart way out. Yeah I should of never dated her in the first place. well i woudnt call it dating but you get the picture. i am currently at the point where IDK what my sexuality is but sometimes I say i should give girls another hsot and get married and have kids but the other side says IM gay and I love penis and yes I said penis and that im gay and i love men alot of men men men men men men men oooh baby men... mind that hahahaha. for now ill call myself..gay.. erm ok maybe I am gay idk but for now ill say im gay because i do spend most of my time around guys and I do like guys so why not say your gay haha.. well for now im out

ok a start of a new day

It is now 146 am in the morning. A catch up on whats been going on with my life thus far. Alot has been happening. within the past weeks. I was hospitalized for Depression and trying to kll myself yes people I was stupid enough to think that. sorry ... but I got the help I needed to get through with all that. IN a short form, I was actually taking care of myself rather then take care of others for the first time in my life. It felt good. I got out just in time to hear the news that my aunt has died of brain cancer. so the following weekend, I had to go down to North Carolina to be there for her funeral. She will be missed. I am still on the hunt for a job. nothing new really. its just my parents are pushing me to get a job get a job so I am.. blah i hate when parents push you to do stuff you dont want to. well its time i did things for my own self ya know. I am 25 years old for peak sake.

I also had some issues with who I was in my life. yeah.... let me explain... I will explain in a new blog later actually. I think for this one this is just fine. well I am out for now :P

too long

ok for the first post, I will say that finding a layout that works with this freaking blog is going to be the death of me before the end of the night. Well it is now 1 am in the morning and its allready the death of me haha I will find one before I head to bed